Saturday, February 29, 2020

Happy Leap Year 2020! This week, although better than last week, still started off a bit rough. We never really know what Landon’s attitude will be in the mornings. He could be horrible the night before, and wake up just fine and ready for school, either way we’ve learned to just hope for the best but prepare ourselves for the worse. This coming Thursday we have his first appointment with a new psychologist/psychiatrist to start him on some much needed counseling. We have been through many different counselors/therapists in the past, and have yet to find the right one for Landon. My hope is that this one will be able to help Landon work through his various feelings and emotions and teach him ways to better control his reactions to the negative ones. I’m also praying hard that myself, Shawn, Levi, and my parents will ALL get guidance on how to help Landon and how to heal from the damage his negativity has created. There’s a lot riding on this appointment. 

Over this last month, I’ve come to realize just how hard it is to find help for parents/caregivers of teens with mental illness. There is just way too many waiting lists out there and when you have a child who is in crisis, the waiting is detrimental in more ways than one. The child and those who care for him and live with him suffer tremendously. It’s extremely disheartening to say the least, and the relationships within the family suffers so much. Thursday cannot come soon enough. 

Wednesday, March 4, 2020

Today I had an extra long, extra hard Physical Therapy appointment. I left sweaty, but I also left feeling incredibly accomplished. I’ve been able to do more in my hour long appointments than I ever thought I’d be able to do and my physical therapist, Meghan, has been AMAZING! For such a tiny, petite lady, she sure knows what she’s doing. I have one more month of physical therapy left, and I already know I’m going to miss it once I’m done. 

Tomorrow is the big day! At 1:00 pm Landon has his first appointment with Dr. Thomas, his new psychologist. I’m trying to get all my notes ready to bring along to this appointment so I don’t forget anything. There’s so many underlying issues with Landon that can easily be forgotten/overlooked at these types of appointments, but because they seem to all impact each other I don’t want to forget to fill him in on something that could potentially be important. Praying and hoping that the appointment goes well, and this doctor can help ALL of us heal.

Two weeks from today I have my appointment to meet with the Osteoporosis specialist and then the following week I have my appointment with the Orthopaedic specialist to help figure out what exactly is going on with my spine and hips. I’ve been warned that they will most likely want to order an MRI, along with some other testing, possibly a bone marrow biopsy and/or biopsy of the fluid around or in between the affected vertebrae. The MRI doesn’t sound bad, but the other testings sound like they could be pretty painful, but I’m ready and willing to undergo any tests if they could potentially give me answers. It’s going to be a very busy month packed with a lot of very crucial appointments for both myself and Landon. The sunshine and warmer weather is definitely a mood booster and I’m hoping it sticks around to help keep my mood and overall health boosted. *Fingers crossed* Hope these updates find you all doing well and staying healthy! 

Love and Hope,   Sarah aka Hopeful Dreamer